INTRODUCTION:
What’s Messing up Your Mind?
A "mind wrecker" is a man who will do anything to mess up your soul and make you feel low. He is manipulator, a liar, and overall a game player. You have been dealing with this man for over 2 years and still you don’t know your place in his heart. He compliments you sometimes to cover his real jealousy that he has against you. He will take any chance that he has to make you feel down (psychologically). If everyone he knows thinks you’re so great, he would find a way to let them know that you’re just as average as his last girlfriend. This Mind Wrecker will make you feel like you’re his queen in front of other people but when you two are alone he does little things that make you wonder what is his true intentions for you. This is a man who wants you all to himself without any family or close friends around that can catch him on his bullshit.
This Mind Wrecker may not physically put his hands on you but he will verbally bash you in every argument that you have by calling you a slut, a whore, a side bitch, an ugly bitch, a fat bitch, etc. This Mind Wrecker knows that you’re a good catch and secretly admires your drive, your motivation, your confidence, but all the while he hates you for those same qualities. This man wants to break down that box to get to your brain so that he can take over and conquer you. He only wants to get back with you after a breakup when he feels that you’re on top and you could live your life without him. He will come back to your world and make you think he’s a changed man only to do the same thing he has done to you just a month ago.
This man loves the way you look but will still go and screw an ugly girl on the side just for kicks. This man loves to see you cry and love to hear you talk smack about other people who are in your life. He will urge you on even more to get rid of your friends so that he could have the upper hand and therefore be the only source to your heart, happiness, and laughter. He will want you to come home after work and not have a drink with the girls but will be the first person that will break his dinner date with you just to go chilling with his boys. He never lets you know his plans ahead of time because doesn’t want you to know his every move.
This Mind Wrecker seems confident on the outside but inside he really doesn’t feel worthy of you and knows that he’s not your level, so he will try to knock you down a notch so that you and him can be on the same ground. All he does is bring havoc to your once peaceful life because he likes to see you fight emotionally and physically for his love and you like the Sweetheart that you are will recognize these signs and work with him hoping it wouldn’t be like this is forever and the very sad thing is that he is never going to change.
He will screw your emotions up so much that you will not be the nice quiet girl you once were. You will be a mad bitch to everyone around you however you will still bow down and take his bullcrap because that is the way he has trained you to be. Before you dated him, you saw life as
one big, beautiful, adventurous place. If you didn’t get something you wanted, you said, "Oh well, let me try again" but after messing with this negative Tot the glass is no longer half full to you, it’s half empty and you see everything as one big black hole. You begin to get frustrated while trying to accomplish the smallest task and you will start to question yourself and wonder if anything is worth trying. He makes you so paranoid that every time he’s away from you, you believe he is doing something sexual with another female. He loves when he gets you crazy like that so he will play on it even more by not answering his phone and pretending to be sleep when you call only to piss your whole night and early morning off. Therefore, you go to work, upset, and worried about what’s he doing and not focused on what you’re supposed to be focused on- your money. That headache and cry fest you had on his voicemail is his confirmation that he is going to be on your mind all day. He is a Mind Wrecker so he likes taking over the only place that you can’t control because believe it or not, you can’t control what you think about; he knows this and loves every minute of it. Then what comes next is a phone call or stupid text saying, you know I love you, why would I hurt you? Then you two make plans to meet and talk after work only for him to be back in your bed penetrating your vagina. He’s groaning and telling you sweet nothings in your ear all the while trying to get a nut and think of another master of disaster plan on how to get your fine ass off of that plateau that you always seem to be on.
See, nothing changes but the game and he knows when you’re crying during this love session and promising him that you’re not going to go anywhere that he’s fucking not only your body but your mind as well. He knows that he’s still in charge even though you are on top riding his dick like it’s the last thing smoking. And why is he control? Because were women and we wear our heart on our sleeves and many times we mistake sex for love and get gassed up by those 4 letter words especially during intimacy. Why else is he in charge? Because he understands that in any love relationship, there is the Lover (the person who gives the love) which is you and there is the Beloved (the person who receives the love) which is him. He knows that you would do anything for him and that no matter how much he messes up; you’re going take him back after he begs for your forgiveness and be a good boy for a week or two.
This manipulator doesn’t love you; hell, he barely takes you seriously. He just wants to get in where he fits in just like everybody else and it’s no longer about sex, please he’s been screwing since he was 13-years-old. It’s about winning over someone who everyone else claims is the star in the relationship. Getting you used to be the prize for him now destroying you is. He may smile like he believes in you and may taste the inside of your walls but he‘s waiting for your down fall so that once you’re down he could step all over you and make you feel like you never had any existence in his world in the first place. He would now look at you as the person who once tried to oppressed him and make him feel unworthy with your achievements. He will try to impregnate you only to convince you to have an abortion, knowing that going through that procedure will hurt you more mentally and physically than having the baby itself.
Welcome to the sick world of the man who sleeps with you every night, been with you for years, but still cant stand your freaking guts. It’s him, the Mind Wrecker. You’re loving him, you’re cosigning his bullshit, but most of all you’re fucking him! So ladies, without further interruptions, let’s get our mind right!
"Girl Get Your Mind Right!" today.
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